jadual harian seorang ayuakira yang kebosanan

Tengok tv.

yang ni memang kerja harian aku. dari celik mata lepas mandi, memang mengadap jela depan tv tu. 

*google image courtesy*

ni antara cerita yang aku suka gilagilagila tengok.

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inkigayo juga!

Sesi mengadap laptop.

yang ni memang kerja aku di mana-mana. after 2, memang aku akan hadap laptop ni sampaila ke malam. sebab pukul 2 tv3 ada cerita putri yang ditukar which i dont like at all. come on, ada ke orang monolog dalaman lamalama sambil pandang muka orang depan yang tengah berborak dengan kita? cett. bila kita tengah borakborak mulut ni kompem laju je nak balas balik kan? oh berbalik kepada sesi menghadap laptop, aku tengok cerita korea, tak pun berusaha tengok onepiece yang abang aku gilakan sangat tu. *tapi episod 1 pon tak habis tengok lagi.* seriously, aku lagi suka beelzebub. ciss siapalah yang develop perasaan suka anime dalam diri aku nih?!

Sesi menulis diari.

*ada orang tulis diari lagi ke tak ek zaman sekarang? ke taip je simpan kat lappy? haha* ahh aku tak kira, kolot ke apa ke, dah aku memang suka tulis diari nak buat macam mana? habit ni kakak aku yang ajar. sejak darjah 3 aku tulis diari. tapi bukanlah harihari. tulis diari ni kira macam terapi lepas tekanan lah untuk aku. naknak kalau tengah hangin dengan encik davy jones. haha.

Sesi hafal lagu korea.

wtf? haha. ak memang suka nyanyi lagu korea sambil tengok lirik dekat internet. mcm bodoh pulak aku ni.tapi, ada aku kesah? sukati aku lah nak buat apa pun. tehee *this comes with awkward dance package. haha*

Sesi tidur.

dah habis semua ni, maka aku akan tidur. =)

*google image courtesy*

Kegiatan sampingan? adaaaaaa. aku kan driver terhormat mak aku? mana dia nak pergi aku kena bawakkan. kalau tak siapa nak hantar dia. bukan dia tak pandai bawak kereta, tapi kalau aku biarkan dia drive sendiri kompem aku kena marah dengan encik along.

Lagi? errr keluar dating kira kegiatan sampingan jugak kan? mestilah aku pergi jumpa kawan-kawan jugak. tapi bukanlah harihari. gila, duit pun takda nak keluar harihari pulak. *gelengkepala* seronok dapat jumpa Zulaika! and aku dengan jayanya telah memaksa Zulaika ikut aku pergi konvo encik bakal-suami. hehe.

*ini dua orang anakdara yang sedang kelaparan-kebengangan-kebingungan dalam cubaan mengambil gambar dengan harapan encik bakal-suami call dan cakap jom balik!*

Lagi? takda dah. 

Bosankan? tapi bila cuti dah nak habis menggelabah pulak aku taknak balik maktab, sheeesh.

notakakiwangi : kadangkadang best jugak jadi student, pegi manamana ada je orang nak sponsor. untonglaaa. 

sedetik lebih

Setiap nafas yang dihembus

Setiap degupan jantung

Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan

Dalam tidur dan khayalan

Aku selalu memikirkanmu


Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang

Barulah terasa ku bernyawa


Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu

Kerana kau beri erti hidup

Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya


Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan

Ku bersyukur adanya kamu


Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia

Asal masih adanya kamu

 notakakiwangi : i meant every word. i wont leave. im goin to stay.

cinta dan kepura-puraan

you can't have a rainbow,

without a little rain.

source

penatnya berpura-pura.
penatnya bila diri rasa terpaksa.
penatnya bila kita terpaksa memahami orang lain tapi dia tak pernah nak faham kita.
penatnya bila terpaksa menipu diri sendiri dan kata 'it's ok, it's going to be fine soon.

kadang-kadang,
dah tak larat nak tipu diri sendiri.
kadang-kadang,
rasa diri dah tak mampu dengan semua benda ni,
kadang-kadang,
rasa nak berputus-asa dengan segalanya,
kadang-kadang,
rasa menyesal,
tapi entahlah,
walaupun terasa diri tak selesa berada dalam keadaan macam ni,
tak tahu kenapa masih mahu bertahan,
walau hati bagai nak pecah,
walau mulut ringan ingin menyumpah,
walau diri terasa ingin berpaling.
bencinya bila diri terasa seperti dipergunakan,
bila mahu datang, bila tak mahu pergi,
begitukah takrif kasih sayang?
entah, aku tak tahu.

penatnya dengan semua ni.
sangat penat.
terlalu penat
terlampau penat.

notakakiwangi : kalau tak penting, tak usahlah disimpan lagi.

marry you!

it's a beautiful night,

we're looking for something dumb to do,

hey baby!

i think i wanna marry you~

#1

im not marrying anyone (at least in two years time)

#2

my husband to be (Nichkhun-shi) seems to be so busy that he can't marry me for at least.....millions years? hahaha

#3

i've drank too much caffein. =,=

so my mind is not in a very good state ;p

*google image courtesy*

*sigh*

i guess i have to deal with it.

when you are living in maktab (ipg),

then you just have to deal with the facts that..

your friends are getting marry one by one,

and before you are even graduate,

your friends status ---> married.

*this is what happening to me*

im not saying

"hey friend. you can't get marry and leave me single"

*haha thats too immature*

but i envy them. a lot.

im happy to see them get marry to somebody they love and can take care of them,

but i suddenly feels so alone.

everyone's getting marry, and i have to attend their kenduri...like  ALONE!

oh this is frustrating! ahahaha

(ke budak maktab aku je yang ramai kahwin? maktab lain?)

*google picture courtesy*

so friends!

yang nak kahwin the end of this year, next year or in this two years time,

enjoy your single moment before its too late.haha

have a beautiful life, please wake up every morning with smiles,

just like what Nichkhun did to Vic-omma ;p

cepat-cepat ada anak, so the next time i go to your kenduri,

its called kenduri cukur jambul.haha

*google picture courtesy*

introduce me to your husband's single friends.

so i won't be single anymore.

ahahaha *someone's goin to kill me for this*

notakakiwangi : thanks guys for inviting me to your wedding.

notanotakakiwangi : im using Khuntoria pictures because i love them too much!

notakakikakiwangi : counting years to get marry like you guys. hahahahaha *like that would happen*

study atmosphere is everywhere!

study study study!!

everyone in this house just like -weh bosannye study- but still struggling study. hehe. 

(merekamereka memang rajin,kenapalah aku tak rajin macam tu? sobss)

surely not for me. kalau dah mula dengar kpop, mintak maaf, im not studying.

but i pretend to. its a way to comfort myself that im not studying at all. haha

(lepastu bila esok dah nak exam barulah kelamkabut study. *sigh)

ayuhlah study! ;p

notakakiwangi : ohh 2PM dah release lagu baru! tak cika lagi dengan hands up dah ada lagu lain. NICE! =)

notanotakakiwangi : saranghaeyo Nichkhun-oppa! *love*

exams!

1 down. 4 more to go.

malangnya, masa orang lain sibuk study risaukan exam dan soalansoalan luar alamnya, aku sibuk jugak. tapi sibuk tengok khuntoria!

and finally, dah habis dah episod we got married-khuntoria - aku dah khatam!

Vic-omma dengan Khun-oppa nangis sikitsikit je. tapi aku nangis kemain lagi. melebihlebih dari yang nak kena bercerai tu. hahah

khuntoria the best!!

ok sekarang boleh fokus exam. teheee~

auch. *love is in the air lalala*

*hehe nak jugak!!*

notakakiwangi : oppa! saranghaeyo. Omma saranghaeyo! ;p

pabo nichkhun

masa nak exam baru ada hati nak tgk we got married-khuntoria.

diasaster. a perfect disaster.

im goin to ruin my results this semester.

because i cant stop watching WGM-Khuntoria.

Oh my. this is disaster. T_T

*google picture courtesy*

nak buat WGM dengan Nichkhun boleh x? haha

kenapalah cepat sangat dorang cerai ni..adoii~

notakakiwangi : im going to marry Nichkhun. for real. ahahahahaha

notanotakakiwangi : saranghae khuntoria! saranghaeyo oopa! hee ;p

notakakikakiwangi : untungla Vic omma dapat amek gambar banyakbanyak dengan Khun oppa. =,=

wrong again.

 

naa..i thought that i met the wrong guy when i was 16.

sorry, wrong person.

 

HA HA

kenapalah lambat sangat aku jumpa benda alah ni?

pffttttt 

we fall in, and we fall out of it.

siapa tak tahu lagu cinta muka buku by Najwa Latif? 

kalau tak tau sungguh la korang ni tak aktif men fesbuk. 

bagus-bagus. 

fesbuk made us a prisoner. HA HA

kalau tak tahu, yang ini ialah lagu cinta muka buku by Najwa Latif.

macam dah jadi trend pulak balas-balas lagu ni.

and yes. encikmimpi dah keluarkan satu lagu bagi membalas lagu cinta muka buku.

good try. good one.

sebab aku gelak cam haram bila dengar lagu encikmimpi. haha.

so that's it. we fall in by facebook, and we fall out by twitter.

NICE one encikmimpi. =)

notakakiwangi : the song - very interesting. jarang aku nak suka lagu-lagu macam ni, but this is very nice though. hahaha

| of laughters and tears.

 

1 year.

and im thankful enough for it.

thank you God. 

for giving me such a wonderful life.

=)

 

notakakiwangi : the prezzie still xsiap lagi. takpekan? sebab bukan kau nak jumpa aku like - now. haha.

Like An Idiot

notakakiwangi : so this is how it feels. 

k-drama sindrom

kenapa cerita korea semuanya sweetsweet belaka?

i even sent a text message to Davy Jones and asked him to be one of those heroes yang ada dalam drama korea. haha. memang tak mungkinlahkan. simpang 44.

tapi tapi tapi..
its good to know that he's always be there, come hell or high water. standing still.
*tibetibe*

lepasni aku nak pergi daftar kelas bahasa korealah.
and then i can go to korea and seduce lee min ho.
hows that sound?
*WTFish.*
Haha

notakakiwangi : kalau tengok cite korea memang macam ni lah. quickly fall in love dengan heronye yang hensem + sweet tak hengat. =D

choose me

when you 

fall in love

next time

CHOOSE ME.

ahahahah. gedik.

it will rain

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin' out the door.

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just let the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/b/bruno+mars/it+will+rain_20984444.html ]
I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well but little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
That'll make you mine

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just let the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain

Don't you say, Goodbye,
Don't you say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
That'll make it right

Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just let the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday, it will rain 

notakakiwangi : so please don't walk away baby~ 

Hello October! =)

Heyya October. please be nice to me. 

Please be awesome.

=)

notakakiwangi : getting tired of you. i wonder how much longer i can stand you. 

shopaholic? yes i am.

 

*google image courtesy* 

one day, i'll become like this.

one day, im going to need a large closet.

oh my..

im just too good on spending money.

hehe.

rasanya kena buat macam Aina.

she gave her allowance to her bf.

Encik BF Aina yang bank in duit Aina setiap bulan.

so that, she wont be as shopaholic as me.

ok, maybe i need someone to be my accountant. HAHA

or maybe not.

maybe i just need to control myself from buying things i dont really need.

*cakap poyo. bila nampak shawls,baju,kasut, mulalah nak membeli.*

saya memang sangat pandai menghabiskan membelanjakan duit.

im the next KLS.

presenting me. Kimora Ayu Simmons.

HAHAHA

notakakiwangi : taknak pergi program ank angkat boleh tak?

+.+

bilalah agaknya aku pulak yang nak konvo ni?

 

notakakiwangi : sedang berusaha menyiapkan hadiah untuk beliau. oh gosh. kenapalah aku pilih untuk buat sendiri? xpelah. chaiyok2!

sometimes, i feel like i have nobody to listen to me, feels like i have nobody to rely to, feels like there's no shoulder i can lend, feels like no one would wipe my tears away..nobody really care.

because they only care for themselves. 

when you're in need, you came to me. but when im in need, you were never there to catch me from falling apart. maybe, just maybe..i am nobody to you.

stop only thinking for yourself, because you don't live alone in this world. stop thinking that you're the only person whom suffer. stop being so SELFISH. just please.

wordless wednesday

 

T_T 

untitled

a woman needs a man to guide her. not a man that she have to guide in every single way

notakakiwangi : macam seronok pulak tengok orang post quotes dekat tumblr. ;p 

common lies

crush

i like it when i see you on my fb wall.

i like it when you told me not to do that, not to do this.

i like it when you really care for me.

i like it when you worried for me.

i like it when you sent me message. even if it just a smile.

i like it when you like what i really like.

i like it when you message me first.

i like the song. and you too.

and i have always like your warm words. =)

=)

when life gives you a thousand reason to cry,

show life that you have a million reasons to smile.

 

notakakiwangi : lepas dah habis seksaan pacat kat sekayu, seksaan kena buat esemen laju-laju pulak menjelma. tapi tak apa, at least im home. and im glad im home. =) 

i wish that...

sometimes, i wish i have someone like BH by my side.

but i guess, there's just no turning back for me. 

 pain is inevitable.suffering is optional. 

i wont let myself suffer for you. 

but it seems like the pain that i can't endure lead myself to suffer.

notakakiwangi : because you are always there, that makes me afraid to lose you. if only BH can stays forever by me...

our happy ending =)

once in a while

right in the middle

of ordinary life

love gives us a fairy tale

 

when i miss you i close my eyes

and i can see you better

 

im going to trust you.

so please have faith in me too..

i want to grow old with you, yes i do.

=)

saranghaeyo~ 

 notakakiwangi : just finished Personal Taste. current mood, in love with lee min ho. maybe, just maybe im really in love with lee min ho. no matter how much i saw him on tv, i'll fall for him. 

notanotakakiwangi : tak berhenti dengar lagu lovesick-ft island, tq aji sebab bagi lagu tu kat aku. ;p 

because i want to be with you

Gae In : im just wondering why do you have to do this? that's all.

Jin Ho : because i want to be with you. i want you to be acknowledge as my woman.

auch.suhweeeeetnye!  

notakakiwangi : menonton personal taste sambil tersengih-sengih malu.

home sweet home beby!

selamat pulang ke rmah sewa anda di Padang Nenas. 

Duhh..

I think i wanna go home this weekend.

Can i?

notakakiwangi : masa sekolah dulu rasanya tak adalah homesick sampai macam ni sekali.T_T

Aidilfitri

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

=)

If u love me..

then..

i'll love u back.

*blushing*

^_^

glitter-graphics.com

notakakiwangi : rupanya ramai jugak yang give their blessings to me and him. yes boleh kawen! HA HA

bye PBS..hello praktikum!

we're just saying GOODBYE to school based experienced (SBE/PBS)

and...

HELLO practicum!!

google picture courtesy

PBS 4 was a blast! Sebab buat dekat ex-school. 

I came back for good. 

I left as a good student (cewahhh) i came back as a teacher. 

The worst part is, the cikgus remembered me, but i dont. ngeh3. Sorry cikgus. Tak sengaja. Bukan taknak mengingati, tapi seperti mana yang cikgu-cikgu faham, i had my worst nightmare when i was in standard 3 and i totally turn 360 degree. But don't worry cikgus, im all fine now. =)

And i passed my UPSR with flying colours. Terima kasih sebab have faith in me cikgu! Im all okay now, dah tak trauma dan yang paling penting, i got myself back (bak kata Ilham). Ilham - he's the one yang perasan perubahan tingkah laku aku.

Apa yang menyebabkan PBS 4 best?

• sebab buat dekat SK KGV
• sebab ada Kalashini Rajendran, Siti Nurfadhilah dan Kala Salamba Durai.
• sebab ada the three stooges versi lelaki -helmi johar,badrul hisham,adi faizi- yang sangat kelakar.
• sebab ada three stooges (perempuan) nak-nak Eton yang sweet! =)
• sebab ada Khairul Anwar dr IPBA (naib pengerusi yang pasif.haha)
• sebab cikgu yang ingat aku, instead of aku yang ingat cikgu. HAHA. terok aih aku nih.
• sebab ada Encik Tamyes Saimun, Guru Besar Cemerlang yang sangat cemerlang.
• sebab kene buat report untuk Guru Besar.
• sebab dapat sijil SBE di SK KGV.
• sebab mijo dengan aji selalu tuju lagu kat aku. hakhak
• sebab students sangat sangat sangat sweet!

4 jejaka idaman dr kiri : Badrul aka aji-khairul anwar aka nuar-adi faizi-helmi johar aka mijo

gadis-gadis pingitan dr kiri : dila-azyan-eton-ayu-fatim-kala-kalashini

Ada banyak lagi, tapi tak ter-list la dekat sini. Rasanya terlalu banyak yang best walaupun mula-mula tu merungut sebab kena buat report. HAHA. Hopefully, we'll always remember each other and embrace the memories we had here. peace ^_^

notakakiwangi : omaigoddddddddddd. sem depan dah mula praktikum!

love

*google image*

Love is not all about happiness. Sometimes there will be arguments, there will be hurting. It may seem that the magic fade sometimes, but the test of true love is how you hold on to one another and fight for it when the battle seems to be a loosing one.

the end.

 good bye Yi Kyung. Saranghaeyo.

She didn't even realized that Yi Soo sat by her side. (sebab Yi Soo kan scheduler, people can't see him.) 

Say Yi Soo are handsome, but still im falling over Han Kang. Can i have a boyfriend just like Han Kang? teheee..

Oppa! saranghae~~ c(x

notakakiwangi : 49 days dah habis. move to another k-drama pulak. =)

sindrom malas

Kebelakangan ni, sindrom malas belajar makin menjadi-jadi. (tapi sememangnya aku bukan stok kanak-kanak riang yang suka belajar). Asal ada kuliah je mulalah jari-jari aku gatal menconteng kertas yang sepatutnya diisi dengan nota-nota berguna supaya masa exam nanti tak adalah tergadak aku nak pergi cari nota. But seriously, MALASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Kalau tak menconteng, maka aku akan mengelamun dan berangan. Haih. Apa nak jadi, tak tahulah. 

Kalau kelas tengah hari lagilah tak boleh blah. Entah berapa juta kali aku menguap pun aku tak tahu. Asal lec bagi take five, kompem aku dok luar lelama. (sila jangan contohi sikap keji aku ni. Haha) Makin best dok luar lelama ni sebab apa? Sebab aku ada geng yang sama maca aku, bosan dalam kelas.

Bila nak hari Rabu nih? Tak sabar nak pulang ke pangkal jalan -seremban-

notakakiwangi : kadang-kadag terasa hati jugak dengan apa yang kau tulis, tapi tak tahu nak cakap macam mana.

Lelaki, Rantai dan Gelang.

*Google image courtesy*

Bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w telah melihat pergelangan tangan seorang lelaki yang memakai gelang yang diperbuat daripada tembaga, maka baginda bertanya kepada lelaki tersebut:”Apakah bendanya ini”? Lelaki itu berkata:”Ia adalah gelang perubatan”. Rasulullah bersabda: “ Sesungguhnya benda itu tadak memberi apa-apa (faedah walaupun untuk tujuan perubatan), buangkan benda itu daripada diri anda, jika sekirannya anda mati dan benda itu ada pada diri anda, maka anda tidak akan berjaya (selamat) untuk selama-lamanya (Sahih riwayat Imam Ahmad).

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Kenapa agaknya lelaki memakai gelang dan rantai? Trend? Atau untuk tujuan perubatan? Depends. Tapi pada akulah, kalau saja-saja nak pakai gelang nak pakai rantai sebab rasa-diri-tu-macho-lagi-hensem bila pakai rantai, forget it. Tak adalah hensem mana. Tak adalah macho mana. Rantai dan gelang bukanlah fitrah seorang lelaki sepertimana perempuan. 

Berkaitan dengan pemakaian rantai leher pula, bila ditanya “ kenapa pakai rantai leher?” ramai menjawab: “rantai ini bukan dari jenis emas atau perak”.  Persoalan di sini bukanlah jenis buatannya sama ada rantai emas, perak, besi ataupun tembaga. Menurut  Islam rantai leher merupakan salah satu alat perhiasan bagi wanita sahaja.  Haram meniru atau menyerupai wanita sama ada dari segi alat perhiasan ataupun pakaian. Amat beratlah kesalahannya jika tujuan pemakaian rantai leher itu bertujuan untuk meniru agama, anutan, ajaran agama lain, maka hukumnya haram, bersandarkan sebuah hadis:

“Barangsiapa yang menyerupai suatu kaum itu, maka dia akan tergolong di dalam kaum berkenaan.” (Riwayat Abu Daud).

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Notakakiwangi : satu hari nanti, aku akan jadi seorang ibu, dan InsyaAllah selagi Allah s.w.t tidak menarik segala nikmat ingatan yang ada padaku, aku tidak akan mengahwinkan anak perempuanku kepada seorang lelaki yang memakai rantai dan yang seumpama dengannya. Sedangkan hukum pemakaian rantai pun dia tidak cakna, bagaimana nanti dia akan mengemudi bahtera perkahwinan dan mendidik anak serta isterinya dengan cara yang diredhai Allah? Kata Benz Aliff dalam Aa+Bb, rumah tangga semua orang ada, tapi rumah tangga Islam, bukan semua orang ada. 

Notanotakakiwangi : sedang muhasabah diri sendiri. =,=

Dulu, kini dan selamanya..

Masa sekolah-sekolah dulu, selalu tertanya-tanya bilalah agaknya boleh keluar dari sekolah dan menjadi dewasa. Tapi bila dah keluar sekolah, rasanya terlalu selalu ingin kembali ke zaman-zaman persekolahan, waktu berhingus dulu lagi. HA HA. School was fun! We learnt, we fought, we love, we cried and we treasure all that.

Dulu taknak sekolah asrama, but then bila dah masuk sekolah asrama, it was too fun too let go. Teringat masa Form 1 dulu. Muka sebet je pergi sekolah. =)

1 Waja at SBPI Selandar. =)

notakakiwangi : i miss old times. i miss 1 2 3 Waja 4 5 Benz. Rasa nak ulang kehidupan dan belajar Lukisan Kejuruteraan dengan lebih bersungguh-sungguh. Nak belajar add math semula dengan cikgu am, tak nak tidur dalam kelas fizik dan kimia. but times wont turn back for me, for you, for us. Jadi, ayuhlah kita meneruskan kehidupan! ;p

What would it be?

If you're about to choose a real relationship status, what would it be?

=)

notakakiwangi : confused? HA HA

untuk awak...arjuna hati

*source : facebook*

notakakiwangi : iheartyou 

welcome to the club!

love me, love me not?

*Google picture courtesy*

Bila orang lain ada boipren, kita pun sama sibuk-sibuk nak ada boipren. Bila dah ada boipren, baru lah tahu langit tu tinggi ke rendah. Having a partner doesn't mean you're being loved all the time. no. naaaaaaa. that was so true on so many levels. yes, they might love you but we didn't know is it true or not. siapa pun boleh kata sayang kan? aku pun boleh je suka-suka kata sayang. sebut sajalah (tanpa makna), bukanlah susah pun kan. people can always tell you that they love you, tapi tak tahulah betul ke atau mainan kata percuma.

Dulu, selalu sangat terfikir, kenapa ye agaknya orang perempuan senang sangat menitiskan airmata bila hati terusik dengan si boipren. dan aku, selalu beranggapan, menangis tu bukanlah satu cara yang cool. apa salahnya kalau sembur je balik boipren tu bila kita sakit dengan dia. That was then, when i thought they're just too dumb too cry. (sorry, this is only an opinion, no hard feelings, no heart feelings) 

But now i know why the heck were they crying damn hard, nak-nak bila bergaduh dengan boipren-yang-tak-paham-perasaan-manusia-perempuan ni. sakit hati yang hanya boleh diterjemahkan dalam tangisan. how's that sound? gay? whatever. i dont really care. only women understands women. so, im welcome-ing myself to the club. and now i can call myself dumb too. duhhhhhhh.

still, in the end..

notes for you :

1. all we need are your support, attention and love.

2. women are complicated. we might need your ears often.

3.you're not PEPSI and we didn't ask for more.

notakakiwangi : everything's a mess. i need my arjuna hati, unfortunately he will never be there for me.