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Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan

Dalam tidur dan khayalan

Aku selalu memikirkanmu


Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang

Barulah terasa ku bernyawa


Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu

Kerana kau beri erti hidup

Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya


Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan

Ku bersyukur adanya kamu


Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia

Asal masih adanya kamu

 notakakiwangi : i meant every word. i wont leave. im goin to stay.

cinta dan kepura-puraan

you can't have a rainbow,

without a little rain.

source

penatnya berpura-pura.
penatnya bila diri rasa terpaksa.
penatnya bila kita terpaksa memahami orang lain tapi dia tak pernah nak faham kita.
penatnya bila terpaksa menipu diri sendiri dan kata 'it's ok, it's going to be fine soon.

kadang-kadang,
dah tak larat nak tipu diri sendiri.
kadang-kadang,
rasa diri dah tak mampu dengan semua benda ni,
kadang-kadang,
rasa nak berputus-asa dengan segalanya,
kadang-kadang,
rasa menyesal,
tapi entahlah,
walaupun terasa diri tak selesa berada dalam keadaan macam ni,
tak tahu kenapa masih mahu bertahan,
walau hati bagai nak pecah,
walau mulut ringan ingin menyumpah,
walau diri terasa ingin berpaling.
bencinya bila diri terasa seperti dipergunakan,
bila mahu datang, bila tak mahu pergi,
begitukah takrif kasih sayang?
entah, aku tak tahu.

penatnya dengan semua ni.
sangat penat.
terlalu penat
terlampau penat.

notakakiwangi : kalau tak penting, tak usahlah disimpan lagi.

marry you!

it's a beautiful night,

we're looking for something dumb to do,

hey baby!

i think i wanna marry you~

#1

im not marrying anyone (at least in two years time)

#2

my husband to be (Nichkhun-shi) seems to be so busy that he can't marry me for at least.....millions years? hahaha

#3

i've drank too much caffein. =,=

so my mind is not in a very good state ;p

*google image courtesy*

*sigh*

i guess i have to deal with it.

when you are living in maktab (ipg),

then you just have to deal with the facts that..

your friends are getting marry one by one,

and before you are even graduate,

your friends status ---> married.

*this is what happening to me*

im not saying

"hey friend. you can't get marry and leave me single"

*haha thats too immature*

but i envy them. a lot.

im happy to see them get marry to somebody they love and can take care of them,

but i suddenly feels so alone.

everyone's getting marry, and i have to attend their kenduri...like  ALONE!

oh this is frustrating! ahahaha

(ke budak maktab aku je yang ramai kahwin? maktab lain?)

*google picture courtesy*

so friends!

yang nak kahwin the end of this year, next year or in this two years time,

enjoy your single moment before its too late.haha

have a beautiful life, please wake up every morning with smiles,

just like what Nichkhun did to Vic-omma ;p

cepat-cepat ada anak, so the next time i go to your kenduri,

its called kenduri cukur jambul.haha

*google picture courtesy*

introduce me to your husband's single friends.

so i won't be single anymore.

ahahaha *someone's goin to kill me for this*

notakakiwangi : thanks guys for inviting me to your wedding.

notanotakakiwangi : im using Khuntoria pictures because i love them too much!

notakakikakiwangi : counting years to get marry like you guys. hahahahaha *like that would happen*

study atmosphere is everywhere!

study study study!!

everyone in this house just like -weh bosannye study- but still struggling study. hehe. 

(merekamereka memang rajin,kenapalah aku tak rajin macam tu? sobss)

surely not for me. kalau dah mula dengar kpop, mintak maaf, im not studying.

but i pretend to. its a way to comfort myself that im not studying at all. haha

(lepastu bila esok dah nak exam barulah kelamkabut study. *sigh)

ayuhlah study! ;p

notakakiwangi : ohh 2PM dah release lagu baru! tak cika lagi dengan hands up dah ada lagu lain. NICE! =)

notanotakakiwangi : saranghaeyo Nichkhun-oppa! *love*

exams!

1 down. 4 more to go.

malangnya, masa orang lain sibuk study risaukan exam dan soalansoalan luar alamnya, aku sibuk jugak. tapi sibuk tengok khuntoria!

and finally, dah habis dah episod we got married-khuntoria - aku dah khatam!

Vic-omma dengan Khun-oppa nangis sikitsikit je. tapi aku nangis kemain lagi. melebihlebih dari yang nak kena bercerai tu. hahah

khuntoria the best!!

ok sekarang boleh fokus exam. teheee~

auch. *love is in the air lalala*

*hehe nak jugak!!*

notakakiwangi : oppa! saranghaeyo. Omma saranghaeyo! ;p

pabo nichkhun

masa nak exam baru ada hati nak tgk we got married-khuntoria.

diasaster. a perfect disaster.

im goin to ruin my results this semester.

because i cant stop watching WGM-Khuntoria.

Oh my. this is disaster. T_T

*google picture courtesy*

nak buat WGM dengan Nichkhun boleh x? haha

kenapalah cepat sangat dorang cerai ni..adoii~

notakakiwangi : im going to marry Nichkhun. for real. ahahahahaha

notanotakakiwangi : saranghae khuntoria! saranghaeyo oopa! hee ;p

notakakikakiwangi : untungla Vic omma dapat amek gambar banyakbanyak dengan Khun oppa. =,=