May Allah Bless

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim,

Counting days. 

May Allah bless us.

May everything going smooth as planned.

InsyaAllah.

notakakiwangi : patutnya DJ ikut kite,tp sbb dia dah cuti seminggu minggu lepas,tak baliklah dia. *sedih*

marry you!

it's a beautiful night,

we're looking for something dumb to do,

hey baby!

i think i wanna marry you~

#1

im not marrying anyone (at least in two years time)

#2

my husband to be (Nichkhun-shi) seems to be so busy that he can't marry me for at least.....millions years? hahaha

#3

i've drank too much caffein. =,=

so my mind is not in a very good state ;p

*google image courtesy*

*sigh*

i guess i have to deal with it.

when you are living in maktab (ipg),

then you just have to deal with the facts that..

your friends are getting marry one by one,

and before you are even graduate,

your friends status ---> married.

*this is what happening to me*

im not saying

"hey friend. you can't get marry and leave me single"

*haha thats too immature*

but i envy them. a lot.

im happy to see them get marry to somebody they love and can take care of them,

but i suddenly feels so alone.

everyone's getting marry, and i have to attend their kenduri...like  ALONE!

oh this is frustrating! ahahaha

(ke budak maktab aku je yang ramai kahwin? maktab lain?)

*google picture courtesy*

so friends!

yang nak kahwin the end of this year, next year or in this two years time,

enjoy your single moment before its too late.haha

have a beautiful life, please wake up every morning with smiles,

just like what Nichkhun did to Vic-omma ;p

cepat-cepat ada anak, so the next time i go to your kenduri,

its called kenduri cukur jambul.haha

*google picture courtesy*

introduce me to your husband's single friends.

so i won't be single anymore.

ahahaha *someone's goin to kill me for this*

notakakiwangi : thanks guys for inviting me to your wedding.

notanotakakiwangi : im using Khuntoria pictures because i love them too much!

notakakikakiwangi : counting years to get marry like you guys. hahahahaha *like that would happen*

Like An Idiot

notakakiwangi : so this is how it feels. 

sometimes, i feel like i have nobody to listen to me, feels like i have nobody to rely to, feels like there's no shoulder i can lend, feels like no one would wipe my tears away..nobody really care.

because they only care for themselves. 

when you're in need, you came to me. but when im in need, you were never there to catch me from falling apart. maybe, just maybe..i am nobody to you.

stop only thinking for yourself, because you don't live alone in this world. stop thinking that you're the only person whom suffer. stop being so SELFISH. just please.

If u love me..

then..

i'll love u back.

*blushing*

^_^

glitter-graphics.com

notakakiwangi : rupanya ramai jugak yang give their blessings to me and him. yes boleh kawen! HA HA

welcome to the club!

love me, love me not?

*Google picture courtesy*

Bila orang lain ada boipren, kita pun sama sibuk-sibuk nak ada boipren. Bila dah ada boipren, baru lah tahu langit tu tinggi ke rendah. Having a partner doesn't mean you're being loved all the time. no. naaaaaaa. that was so true on so many levels. yes, they might love you but we didn't know is it true or not. siapa pun boleh kata sayang kan? aku pun boleh je suka-suka kata sayang. sebut sajalah (tanpa makna), bukanlah susah pun kan. people can always tell you that they love you, tapi tak tahulah betul ke atau mainan kata percuma.

Dulu, selalu sangat terfikir, kenapa ye agaknya orang perempuan senang sangat menitiskan airmata bila hati terusik dengan si boipren. dan aku, selalu beranggapan, menangis tu bukanlah satu cara yang cool. apa salahnya kalau sembur je balik boipren tu bila kita sakit dengan dia. That was then, when i thought they're just too dumb too cry. (sorry, this is only an opinion, no hard feelings, no heart feelings) 

But now i know why the heck were they crying damn hard, nak-nak bila bergaduh dengan boipren-yang-tak-paham-perasaan-manusia-perempuan ni. sakit hati yang hanya boleh diterjemahkan dalam tangisan. how's that sound? gay? whatever. i dont really care. only women understands women. so, im welcome-ing myself to the club. and now i can call myself dumb too. duhhhhhhh.

still, in the end..

notes for you :

1. all we need are your support, attention and love.

2. women are complicated. we might need your ears often.

3.you're not PEPSI and we didn't ask for more.

notakakiwangi : everything's a mess. i need my arjuna hati, unfortunately he will never be there for me.

Dear Diary Yuyu..

Dulu, masa aku kecik-kecik, aku sukaaaaaa tulis diary. Infact, sekarang pun aku masih tulis diary, sebabnye bila aku marah n tak dapat nak luahkan, diar la akn jadi mangsa. Kira macam terapi utk menenangkan diri sendiri jugakla fungsi diary aku tu. Nama diary aku semuanya Yuyu. Alah, nama lappy aku pun Yuyu, basikal aku pun Yuyu. Hak milik aku kebanyakkannya memang bernama Yuyu. hee~ Malam tadi, entah kenapa tergerak hati nak bukak balik diary lama, masa zaman aku sekolah rendah dulu. Tapi aku tak baca pon, sebab, siyesly aku malu nak baca. HAHA. Gosh, kalau ada orang jumpa diary aku and baca, memang tak tahulah mana aku nak campak muka ni. haha.

Tapi ape yang aku jumpa lepastu lebih menarik. A box of.....

 Hmm..surat chenta! haha. 

(boleh amek gambar kotak je. secret and confidential surat2 tu sume.hehe)

dulu mak aku anta p skolah jauh-jauh suh blaja, tapi aku sebok bechenta. tu pasal xpandai and tak dapat fly. haha. but i have no regrets. =) benda dah jadi kan? =) frankly, aku dah lama tak bukak kotak ni dan dah lama tak membaca isinya. Masa aku jumpa ni pun aku tak baca. Benda dah lepas,lagipun sebelum 'hujan turun' lebih baik simpan je kan, =) tapi yang pastinya, semua surat2 yang pernah aku dapat, aku simpan dalam kotak tu. huhu. Lepas ni kena tukar kotak, mana tahu kot-kot abang aku baca post ni, tak ke naya aku kalau die cek kotak tu. haha. buek malu yo. =p

notakakiwangi : agak-agak boipren zaman sekarang bagi surat lagi x? sweetnye kalo ade, teringin nak 1! ade sape-sape nak bagi aku surat cinta? haha

selalu sye terfikir

selalu sye terfikir..

kenape org lain terlalu cpt bertemu pengganti?

walhal tidak sampai setahun berputus kasih..

selalu sye terfikir..

kenape lambat sangat hati nk sembuh..

dari luka-luka semalam?

sedangkan sudah di tanam di dalam hati dia bukanlah yang terbaik buat kita..

selalu sye terfikir..

bagaimana kita boleh suka seseorang tanpa sebarang isyarat?

walaupun baru mengenalinya sehari dua..

selalu sye terfikir..

kenapelah awk boleh suke sye?

sedangkan sye tidak sebaik org lain..

malah tidak sebaik awk pun..

selalu sye terfikir..

tidakkah awk menoleh kepade yg lebih baik drpd sye?

walaupun sye takut awk akn beralih arah..

selalu sye terfikir..

mane arahnye kite berdue?

walaupun dalam hati sye mahukan pengakhiran yg baik..

selalu sye terfikir..

adekah awak akan berubah hati?

sedangkan dalam hati tidak pernah sye terlupe utk berdoa..

agar Tuhan dekatkan hati kite berdua..

selalu sye terfikir..

bila sye dah tua dan dah tiada daya..

adekah awk akn meninggalkan sye..

meniti hari tua keseorangan?

selalu sye terfikir..

akankah ade rasa cinta dlm hati awk..

untuk sye dan HANYA utk sye..

selalu sye terfikir..

adakah awk akan menggenggam tangan sye apabila sudah tua..

sama seperti hari ini?

selalu sye terfikir..

mungkinkah kita akan bersame selamanya..

seperti kedua org tua kita..

sye cuma mahu awak.

*ihsan google image*

p/s : credit to cik TN. =) ko mmg jiwang..haha

kerana aku seorang wanita

Oke, tajuk tu tesangatla menyampah. Bajet wanita btol..haha. Oh minggu ni adalah minggu apresiasi wanita. (sebenarnye dah abes dah pun minggu apresiasi wanita nih).Aku je yang ketinggalan update entri. BTW, ramai xde sape bace, so do i care? Haha.

Tanpa disangka-sangka, aku yang dah lama tak menari ni masuklah pulak pertandingan menari. Siyesly, agak lembut k e r a s la pergerakan aku. Dah bertahun-tahun kot aku tinggalkan dunie tarian. Bukan setakat 2,3 tahun. Last time masa aku form 1 dekat KGV dulu kot! Haila, its about 8 years ago la. Sure la segala tangantangan jarijemari dan juga lenggangan dah tak seperti dahulu. 

Haha, lawak je aku rasa tengok diri sendiri menari. Tak macam dulu langsung! Plus, aku tak pernah berzapin, kat n9 manela pemes sangat zapinzapin ni. Step die pon aku tak pernah tahu. Yang aku selalu buat Joget. Zapin dengan Joget dah tentulah berbeza. Orang Terengganu kate, kerah kekung! Haha. Kekung ke kejung ke lantaklah. Dah lepas dah pun tarian tu.

*tak cukup sorang,saadah pegi mane tah.*

*ni gaye grup korea mane ak pon xingt.wonder girl ak rase*

Even tak menang, aku sangat enjoy menari dengan budakbudak tarian grup aku, Ieqa, Mira, Fiza,Nor, Saadah and Farhani. Latihan ktowg penuh dgn gelak ketawa. =)

laparlaparlapar

Saya lapar.

Bila saya lapar, saya tak ada mood.

Bila tak ada mood, cepat je na melenting.

Bila melenting, mesti menangis.

Bila menangis, mesti saya teringat si dia.

Bila teringat si dia, mesti lagi kuat nangis.

Bila dah nangis kuatkuat, mesti penat.

Bila dah penat, mesti tertidur.

Bila bangun tidur, mesti mata sembap.

Bila mata dah sembap, mencanak mekap muka supaya hilang sembap.

Haih.Kenapa suka sangat menangis?

Tak boleh ke kalau kuatkan sikit hati?

Tak boleh ke bertahan sedikit?

:: i dun care ::

i dun care how long ur hair is..

i dun care how dark ur skin colour is..

i dun care how tall are u..

i dun care how skinny u were..

i dun care how u appear to be..

i dun even care..

if u are not as good looking as anyone else..

because for me..

u are perfect da way u are..

and..

i heart u da way u are..

wif all my heart..

my daddy my hero

hmm..

it hv been 10 years after u passed away..

haih.lamenye.xsedar cepat sungguh masa berlalu.

10 years ago.

i was a lil kid y manje, yang mengada-ngada dgn my dad.

Heh,after all mmg ayah syg aku lebih!

haha..Betul! Sbb mak selalu sebelahkan along dgn angah.

Masa tu aku ta kesah. Aku ade ayah. Mintak aje ape-ape. Kompem dpt.

Tu dulu. 10 years back. Mana lah nak dapat those moments yang dah lama tu..

Ingatan sahaja yang tinggal.

I was only 9 years old kid. Daddy's brat yang hidupnye riang gembira n tak ambil peduli hal sekeliling.

Kalau nak diimbaukan kembali, tak banyak yang mampu aku ingat. 

But im lucky to hv brothers yg sengal n agak2 mereng mcm aku jgk! Haha.

They kept remind me of how manjenye aku dgn arwah ayah, say anything, anything at all.

[bak kate P.Ramlee,skali petik spuluh dtg.] haha.

 

*me n ayah*

10 years after.

Here i am.

Dah pandai main blog! haha

Anak ayah dah besar.

Along dengan angah dah besar.

*ouh.angah.tu.da.gemok.*

Mak? Mcm dlu..xkurus xgemok.

Mak luvs u ayah. Like we ol do. ^_^

Hmm..

Kk long Nani? Haha itu daten kn yah,,JK(jiwe kacau) selalu.Macam adik jgk!

Kk long pon da kerja. Tinggal adik je y belum lg.

Ayah..

im sorry to hurt u..

u want me to b a doc..

but i dun even studied in science class..

u want me to b an engineer..

but im not gud enuf in engineering technologies, chemistry n even physics.

u want me to b a gud child..

but still im not gud in my emotions feelings management..

but im trying ayah..

pray for me..

im praying for u ayah..

May God bless u..

May u live a gud life in heaven, InsyaAllah.

I luv u ayah!

We miss u a lot. But we manage to live a gud life.

Im great enuf to hv u as my ayah. ^_^

.hidupbaikbaik.kamijugaakanhidupbaikbaik.

::my knight in shining armour::

in da middle of nowhere..

i found u..

b..

i dunnoe how to explain this..

we started by a bet..

pipel maybe think dis is a c.r.a.p..

b..

for no matter how long i think of it..

for no matter how much i tot of us..

still...

i dun hv da answers..

b..

i dunnoe if i've fallen into u..

i dunnoe wuts goin on between us..

i dunnoe wut u hv in ur mind..

but b..

if we're only frenz..

den do tell me..

im not goin to scold u..

tell me if u think its a mistake from da start..

tell me wut u hv for me..

bcuz b..

i dun wanna get h.u.r.t anymore..

its hurt so much 'till i cant live a normal life..

if there's notink..

den do tell me b..

i will throw away da feelings..

b..

i noe..

im faling for u by time..

Dear Little Me

she came..

from the middle of nowhere..

with her bright smile..

he got cought with her bright smile..

*I am happy for both of them*

And me..

still..

stuck with the unfamiliar feelings..

that I have to avoid..

Dear little me~

stay conscious..

and dont take everything for granted..

you had it..

but you ignore it..

then you dont have to regret when it flown away from you..

because..

its your fault in the 1st place..

Dear little me~

 wish him the best..

give him the bright smile..

a sincere smile from a friend..

because he deserve it..

Dear little me~

have fun with your life..

u deserve a better life..

smile.laugh.love

its all in your way..

Dear little me~

have a good journey..

in the pathway..

that you've chosen..

::.:: jatuh cinta ::.::

Fall in love?

I guess everybody does. Me too. But does love fall for you? Hmm..i guess love does not fall for me. Well its hard for me to forget him. Orang selalu kata, alah..cinta budak-budak..nonsense! Nonsense for them, but not for me. If its true that the love was just a childish feeling, then why does i cant forget him? Why does i kept comparing him with some other guys?Its not that im closing my heart for other guys, but somehow i feel that i cant accept others. Its hard..What am i supposed to do when in my eyes i just see him, in my ear i heard him, i feel him in the heart, ouh he conquered myself completely!

I let him be. I let him be inside of me. Ouh how much im hoping that he can be erase from my mind! praying hard for that~ *sumpah* it just not fair seeing him live his life beautifully with his great gilfriend..[kononnyelah] huh..

Aku sayang die!

I keep saying that to my friends and they already bored to hear that..sorry la ye kawan-kawan. I can't help it. Dah macam 'wajibul ghunnah' pulak cakap benda alah tu..hehehe But really, i do love him and it seems like i don't have the same feelings towards any other guys.See? How special that Mr. S. Since we were in the same school, im afraid we would meet in any of school occassion..reunion especially. I just dont have the guts to face him. Oh my, im wondering..did i love him or this feeling is just some kind of foolish childish action~

Life goes on and it makes me strong
~lalala~

Life goes on..yeah...living in a *happy life* *smile a lot* *cry a lot* *fight with my best friend* *sometimes lost in my own pathway* *having fun with people that i rarely talk to*

*life just beautiful in its own way*